Filty Victorians stuff + blog change again

Well it seems I just can't settle!

Anyway, this is really just some more Filthy Victorians stuff. I know. I've been a shit blogger and I am really upset I didn't get to go through with the plans for the year. It really upsets me that i didn't get that chance. With my health absolutely falling apart, having had to stay in bed for pretty much the last few weeks with chronic pain, fatigue and emotional stuff, and the fact that our housemates are crazy and we are getting evicted because we...are nice and tidy up after them apparently (sin of sins) i just haven't found the energy to dress up and be lovely and my usual self.

Honestly? I feel lonely. I feel like no one wants me around or wants to talk to me. It seems like people who were talking to me only a few weeks ago are avoiding me.

Having Heather down for all of last week was a nice break. She's moving down soon. But in the meantime I am just not coping.

I feel like I'm alone. All the time. I know I'm not, I know I'm never really alone but, still, everything seems to be getting away from me. I feel vague and on the outside of everything.


Do you all just want me to go away? Because I will, if I'm not wanted around anymore. It's okay. Please just someone tell me what I'm missing and what's going on.