Sunday, 15 April 2012

Filty Victorians stuff + blog change again

Well it seems I just can't settle!

Anyway, this is really just some more Filthy Victorians stuff. I know. I've been a shit blogger and I am really upset I didn't get to go through with the plans for the year. It really upsets me that i didn't get that chance. With my health absolutely falling apart, having had to stay in bed for pretty much the last few weeks with chronic pain, fatigue and emotional stuff, and the fact that our housemates are crazy and we are getting evicted because we...are nice and tidy up after them apparently (sin of sins) i just haven't found the energy to dress up and be lovely and my usual self.

Honestly? I feel lonely. I feel like no one wants me around or wants to talk to me. It seems like people who were talking to me only a few weeks ago are avoiding me.

Having Heather down for all of last week was a nice break. She's moving down soon. But in the meantime I am just not coping.

I feel like I'm alone. All the time. I know I'm not, I know I'm never really alone but, still, everything seems to be getting away from me. I feel vague and on the outside of everything.


Do you all just want me to go away? Because I will, if I'm not wanted around anymore. It's okay. Please just someone tell me what I'm missing and what's going on.

14 comments:

Miss Morgan said...

Hun, we love you, don't go anywhere.

Leslie said...

I'm sorry you're having a rough time of it. Things will get better (trite though that may seem). Just keep plodding forward.

Hayley said...

No!! You're too awesome to go away!! Please stay! If you ever want to talk to me on Facebook you can!

linnea-maria said...

I wish I could say something to really make you feel better, not just empty words. But i sincerely think you are a cute and funny girl, the way I know you through your blog. I'll hope you won't stop writing here, because I think you can get a lot of positive energy from your readers. It's ok to fail and to feel sad. Your'e not alone. You have the strenght to write it here and describe how you feel that is more courage than I have. I wish I could come to the other side of this globe and give you a hug and support you. Hugs and kisses!

Amy Asphodel said...

I love you. Here anytime.

Stefanie - The Bookish Owl said...

*hugs* No-one wants you to go :( I think you're awesome, everyone has a little blue time occasionally, things will get better, as long as you have Growlithe, the cats and your loyal readers then you will never be alone.

Maybe with all the things that are going on Filthy Victorians should postpone til next year, it'll give people more time to organise things too.

HollyElise said...

No going anywhere. Okay? Also, you have me on Skype and you can talk to me anytime, I'm almost always around for a chat.

(Captcha of the day: ougarge, which everyone knows is the word for the sound one makes when gargling. I think.)

VelvetBat said...

Awww. :( *hugs*
Pain, fatigue and emotional stuff are so frustrating! But if you can't find the energy to dress up, you should push yourself. Try to accept it and just dress up when you feel better again. When you have pain and fatique, it is better not to spend any energy to things you can not change and to be upset about them.

But don't go away!

Genna Rivers said...

Please do stay, Miss Lovett. We all very much appreciate your presence, even via the interwebs. Very much hoping you feel much much better soon!

Mary Poppins said...

If I'll win the lottery, I'll pay you a planne ticket to Budapest and take you to the carousel, and buy you fluffy candy. Just don't be sad. :(

This one: http://www.cultiris.com/kepek/thumb/31334/w/photo/artist-rigo-tibor/a-budapesti-vidampark-szazeves-korhintaja.jpg

Niamh said...

Oh Kitty I know how you feel. I really do. I hope it gets better soon. We all love you! Remember that!

Tenebris In Lux said...

I'm totally digging the new changes on the blog! And if you have to take a little break, I'll understand. My health is not doing great either, and it'll only get worse. I'm getting some treatment in the future to help slow shit down, but I'm doing the best to fare on at the moment.

Tenebris In Lux said...

But seriously. That is the cutest blog background I've seen in ages.

Anonymous said...

Kitty, we don't matter. We adore you to be sure, and miss your FUCK YOU TOO INTERNET rants, but do want you need to do for you.
We care about you. And if it means changing some things you want in your life to feel less lonely, you should do it.
But nothing has changed. And that's what great about us blogger types- we spend so much time on the internet it stunts our growth as human beings. Which explains why I have an undeveloped personality and aversion to change :) All that to say, everything will still be here whenever you need it, or don't.

Just do what you need to do for you. :)

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