Thursday, 19 January 2012

Still down and out

The last little while, I have been pretty ill, and things have been pretty crappy. I just haven't had the energy to blog. It's really sucked, since I have supposed to have hung out with Jen and Fairy a lot, but I just...I don't know, don't really feel "there"? I feel boring, bored and tired all the time, despite the fact I usually manage to sleep, what, 10-12 hours a day? My anxiety is getting so much worse, and I just feel like everyone is criticising me, even though they aren't, and are making no indications of it.

My eyesight was horrible this morning. Four five or six hours, I couldn't see anything except for stuff that applied to my reading glasses, and for about two hours before Shaun left for his first night of work since we moved, I couldn't move because I felt like I was being stabbed in the abdomen.

I feel like I'm letting people down and I don't know why. I feel like a total waste of space at the moment, with no job, no prospects and no money. I can't seem to focus on anything, for any amount of time. I miss Tilly and Delilah and the kittens so much, and I won't ever see them again.


I don't know what to do anymore. I hope I can get back to blogging soon. You guys always made me feel better before.


 

17 comments:

theEmocarebear said...

Feel better when you're able to, Kitty! Being ill is never pleasant (unless you can enjoy the free time!); so I wish you health, and soon. ^^

CatacombKitten said...

Aww, I hope you feel better soon. It's not your fault that you're ill, so give it some time and I'm sure you'll feel better again, both emotionally and physically. Lots of hugs!

xToxicTears said...

Awie, hope you feel better soon.;o; I hate those kinda feelings.:c

Hayley said...

I'm sorry you feel so bad. I hope you'll get better soon and if you ever need to talk, I'm alway open. Just Facebook message me.

Katanya said...

Get better soon Kitty! I enjoy reading your posts :)

GothPocket said...

Aw..feel better soon! I hate getting sick...it stinks. :(

Cherish said...

I really hope you feel better soon, that sounds nasty!

Monster said...

Maybe you should consider talking to someone; the feelings you described sound kind of like the way I felt around the time I was diagnosed with depression. Check out the beyond blue website: www.beyondblue.org
I hope you feel better soon.

Kitty Lovett; The Unadulterated Cat said...

Thank you everyone, you guys do make me feel a lot better.

Monster - I was diagnosed with depression when I was eight. It's no news to me. And Beyond Blue is run by homophobes and racists. Their solution to "depressed because of sexuality" is "stop being gay". My depression goes th

Kitty Lovett; The Unadulterated Cat said...

rough phases, it will pass again soon when some of our housemates leave.

Tenebris In Lux said...

Get better soon, cat ;-;

And I thank you for kitty pictures. Fuzzy fuzzy kitties.

My CAPTCHA is "flycle." I'm assuming it's a flying bicycle? It also sounds like a fancy monocle ..

Ms. Lou said...

Feel better soon! Love reading the blog. :)

Goth Mary Poppins said...

Hi, I know a herbal tea mix, wich helps, and it's natural.

You have to take tha same amount of tutsan(Hypericum perforatum), Catnip (Valeriana Officinalis), and melissa(Melissa Officinalis). For a tea, pour boiling water on it, and wait ten minutes. Drink 2 dls every day, but not more, because it makes you sleepy.

And against sleepyness Mint (Menta Piperita) is the cure. Tea, essential oils, whatever.

Hope this helps, and you appriciate it, because I had to look up their latein names, as I don't want you to accidentally poison yourself... ^^

Kitty Lovett; The Unadulterated Cat said...

Mary poppins, firstly: I'm in Australia. Most herbal remedy ingredients don't grow here. Secondly, you shouldn't ingest catnip any more frequenly than you should drink, I don't know, mercury. As for mint, the stuff burns my mouth and makes my tongue bleed. Can't stand it.

I don't think there's a tea for this sort of thing.

Goth Mary Poppins said...

I knew this will happen! :D It's a translating error, SO sorry! Valeriana Officinalis is called "catroot" in my language, that IS confusing.

Catnip (Nepeta Cataria) is not poisonous, but smells like rotten old socks, (so really, it's not a wise idea to chew on it)but also has tranquilising effects. Here they even sell catnip pills, for stressed people, I mean in pharmacies, legally.

Explanation about cats and catnip:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J5Xrcp6k8VE

Hope you will get better soon.

Phoenix said...

<3

Melodykat0 said...

You have the cutest cats in the world ever... jus' saying

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